Sabtu, 22 Mei 2010

I dun even get it!

Bagi saya, masa depan yang tervisualisasikan dengan baik justru kebanyakan tidak tercapai. Ini kedengaran menyedihkan dan seakan tidak optimis. Tapi sungguh, saya percaya dengan takdir yang telah diciptakan sang khalik untuk saya. Apapun itu, dengan kemahadayaan-Nya garis hidup yang saya jalani menghadirkan kedahsyatan unik yang tidak terbayangkan. Jauh dari visualisasi sederhana yang selama ini saya untai. Justru...lembaran-lembaran masa yang saya hadapi memberi sensasi baru yang tidak terbayangkan, dan itu memuaskan!! Subhanallah...

Dulu, waktu ikut pertukaran pelajar di Indiana, US...saya memiliki seorang teman baik dari Swiss. Sandra Isler, gadis baik dan manis dari dataran tinggi pegunungan Alpen yang bercita-cita mulia; menjadi seorang guru TK. Passion-nya dalam mendidik dan menyayangi anak-anak kecil menjadi faktor utama baginya untuk meraih cita-cita indah itu...saya memujinya, menghargai keinginannya yang sederhana tapi eksotis, dan berdecak kagum pada detik itu juga. 

"Being a teacher is wonderful, but I can't be a teacher", respon saya saat mendengar pernyataannya. Tawa renyahnya mendengar pernyataan yang terkesan "konyol" itu sedikit membuat saya gamang; kalau-kalau Tuhan berkehendak lain dan akhirnya saya berprofesi jadi guru apa jadinya?? bagi saya profesi sebagai guru waktu itu adalah proyeksi masa depan  yang tidak mungkin, i just can't be a teacher, tidak ada reasonable explanation for that, cant be explained, just doesn't fit to my passion.

waktu berlalu, perpisahan mengantar kami ke negeri masing-masing. Ia dengan impiannya berada di antara kerumunan anak kecil yang tertawa riang sambil bernyanyi, tak pernah henti merangkai asa-nya yang menawan. Saya akhirnya terdampar, terdampar dalam selubung takdir kepunyaan Allah....

Fathih Technology; tempat pertama saya mengajar.whoaaaaaaaaa, heran kan? it's undeniable. Saya sudah jadi guru les sewaktu SMA :) heran heran heran heran, saya tidak pernah membayangkan bisa merasakan masa-masa tertentu seseorang guru. dan sekarang, tahun pertama kuliah di Universitas Indonesia..saya menjadi kembali menjadi seorang guru.. seorang guru privat. 

Mencari uang; itulah misi utama lowongan pekerjaan ini saya ambil. Yah, sebagai anak pertama yang sudah tidak ada ayah lagi rasanya terlalu berat untuk membebani Ibu di rumah. Beasiswa yang pas-pasan tidak begitu cukup mengisi kantong saya di sini. Finally, I decide to take this chance dengan segala konsekuensinya (means less time to study, sigh...)

Here I am, mahasiswi UI jurusan Hubungan Internasional, terdampar di Depok, mengajar lintas provinsi;hahaha, hanya ke Jakarta doooh, dan dicintai adik2 didik privatnya. I start to love this job; saya bahagia ketika mereka mengerti dengan apa yang saya ajarkan, saya senang ketika mereka berucap "terima kasih kak" setelah pelajaran usai, dan saya sumringah ketika mereka bilang "aku pasti bisa mengerjakan ini besok di UMB" ketika jurus jitu saya berikan, dan saya melayang ketika salah satu adik didik saya memberi hadiah bertuliskan "I love Ms.Widy, she is the best Math teacher"...

"Being a teacher is wonderful, and I can be wonderful cos I am a teacher right now :) "

P.S. I still wanna be a diplomat though (the first Indonesian woman ambassador) amiin. It's only part time, note it's part time not permanent! lol.

Sabtu, 15 Mei 2010

share love with your own love, not me!

there was a girl asked me : "I've never heard you mentioned about guy you had crush on or something"

me : "well, it doesn't mean I don't have one rite? of course I've had crush on a guy before"

she responded : "seemingly you don't like to talk about him"

me : "it's just not a good time to talk bout it now. i mean i am not kinda guy-oriented at this time. i still have bunch stuffs to think about"

she astonished

me : "I am still straight,girl."

silence...


I am straight, I am normal, but I am just confused by those who's lives full of romances stuffs around whilst they keep updating facebook status decorated with "love", "miss", "him" words. it turns facebook as a love trash, duh!!!

I just think when you love someone, the relations is all about you and him rite? you don't have to publish the craps to entire people who become your friend on facebook. cos it appears as a junk and sucks up my mood. i know it sounds rude, but wudnt it be more rude when i erase you from my friend list mainly because your  corny status? (tho, it's my own right to do that; erase them and i'll be satisfied)

above all, i quite disagree with "love publication" on facebook status, since showing off your personal life is considerably risky in my mind. 

this writing is not intentionally addressed to hurt someone, but purposely to evoke our consideration regarding "recent-mawkish facebook status trend", think about our reputation,dudes...it's just too ashamed sharing our love misery on a facebook status publication. hope we can learn each other, adults think more about useful stuffs rite?! 

:) a girl who perceive da world simply because she is pacing an adult world.

Jumat, 07 Mei 2010

An Ideal World I Imagine :)

An ideal world to me appears when we can see a cheerful, dynamic, and happy global community on this planet. The happiness is not always about the economic growth and GDP, indeed it has something to do with each community's needs. It can be need for education, health service, food supply, technology, financial support, etc.  
I want to see world becomes such a nice and cozy place to live where we are no longer worrying about inequality, conflicts, abuses, racism, hunger, poverty, and other social problems. I also wonder for no more colonization in any forms, no more international pressure on such a weak country done by a strong state, no more intervention which can harm other countries' self determination.
I want to see every kids have a chance to smile and laugh when their moms deliver them to school then they say,”Bye Mommy, I will learn abundance of knowledges today because I will be success tomorrow”. There will be no more illiteracy on this earth, every children can go to good school and enjoy the insights.
It might sound as an utopia for those who are pessimist. In fact, there are so many ways to make it come true. Though we are not going able to see it later, perhaps our generation will be enjoying what we have done today for global community's good. So, let's start any actions from a small step within our community!